Slow down...

The last couple of months have been hectic.  Packing, living in and around boxes, moving, setting up, organising all the things that come with going into a new house, running back to back to back half marathons…I have been stretched.  However, the last week or so, since finalising a lot of these obligations has slowed down…. nicely, slowed down.  Which seems from an outsiders perspective that it should be the opposite heading into school holidays with a business and training, but life is good.

For so long now I have been in a hurry, and I still kind of am in a lot of ways.  I always feel like I have a lot to do, little time to stop and talk let alone rest.  Now, I am far from being a sit around, watch a movie, put the TV on and eat a bowl of popcorn kind of guy but the tide seems to have turned.  

So often, I find myself caught up in my own head, worrying about all the things I have to do, ticking things off my ‘to do list’ and just getting as much done as possible in a day that I can.  I am hoping things are trending this way but I find myself, since moving into our new home, slowing slightly.  I am stopping to talk to people more, catch a picture of a sunrise, and not stress as much if I can’t get 20 jobs done in a day.  Slowly, using the small steps approach, doing a bit each day, and what doesn't get completed, finishing tomorrow.  

This may seem like a minuscule thing to many, but when caught up in your own head and living this way for so long, this mind shift is something that will serve me well if nurtured and progressed slowly.  It has been the smallest of shifts.  However, sometimes, a lot of times, that little pebble of a thought, idea or vision is all it takes to snowball into something meaningful.  I am a LONG way from where I would like to be, and to be honest, I like getting stuff done.  There is something satisfying in having a list of stuff you want to do and crushing those jobs.  However, there is also something extremely rewarding in taking a step back, being ok with things just being and picking up a book every now and then.

So, I’m slowing down.  Well, trying to.  Taking time to not be stuck to a schedule where possible.  Talking to people when the opportunity arises for a good conversation, being ok with things that can be done tomorrow and generally taking it easier.  Today is all we have and whilst it is great to accomplish things, it is also a blessing to be present, enjoy the occasion and just be.  Here’s to crushing goals but also taking the time to celebrate them in some stillness.  Much love friends.

Day 86 of my half marathon a day challenge done.