Week 4...

Week 4...Weigh in - 80.9 - up 100g.9/2 - Day 22Run -  16k - 6k on my own, then the stepper, then 10k with the girls.  Good morning out!  1hr 33min 27sec.  Average - 5.50min p/km.    Stepper - 17minWell, I was a little disappointed this week in my weigh in.  I feel like I have worked hard, eaten really well and I put on 100g.  Weird.  In saying this though, my eating habits have completely changed from a couple of weeks ago, I am eating much more high vibrational foods, ones that are serving me and not destroying me and THIS is the goal, not necessarily weight loss.  So whilst I would have liked to see some good results on the scales today, I am not un-happy as such as I have had a great week in all the other ways mentioned above.  Heres to a ripper week ahead!Well, after writing that this morning, today has been up and down.  I had a really great morning catching up on some jobs and eating real good food.  In the arvo however, for the first time, I fell into the 'after weigh in' mindset of old.  I used to do this all the time where I would eat really well up to weigh in day, stress a bit, weigh in and then eat poorly after getting on the scales.  Whilst it was not to that extent today, it still wasn't great.  For this reason, I am thinking of weight in ever 25days to alleviate some mental stress and focus on the good things I am putting in my body and getting enough calories from whole foods, not a number.  So I might just do that, see how things go.Appart from that, I had a productive day, doing a heap of paperwork type jobs, relaxing a little, garden work and cooking some goodies.  Days off are so nice.  I am looking forward to some super clean eating this week after this afternoons little hiccups and training like a mad man again!  This week will be rad!Food/drink journal - Nice cream (10 bananas, handful of grapes, coconut water, five small dates, carob, iodine drops), coffee, roast vege salad with tahini dressing, Engine 2 home made cookie balls, dark chocolate, yellow nectarine, home made pizza, Engine 2 brownies, tea, half piece vegan banana bread.10/2 - Day 23Run - 22k w five hill repeats and four tough man loops.  2hr 10min 54sec.  Average - 5.57min p/km.Right.....today was not good diet wise.  I have decided I am not going to include my food/drink journal today as 1. I am too embarrassed at how much I ate and 2. I can't exactly remember how much I ate!  In saying that, I am going to be brutally honest in todays post about how I feel, whats going to be happening going forward and where I am at.In the past, when I have had a 'bad' moment (yesterday afternoon/night) it has carried on for a couple of days before being reigned back in.  It took everything within me this morning to get up, go train and I really did have good intention to get back on track with my eating today.  This did not happen (but I did get out for my run).  Why this happened and has happened in the past I do not know!?  It is beyond me but I just get in a spiral and find it really hard to get out!  I have eaten so well for 21days and I think I just got complacent the last two days!Now, the beauty of life and this journey/challenge is that every day is new and I can make good choices every moment every day.  Tomorrow, I am putting 100% focus back into my diet, aiming to make it even simpler and even more nutritionally dense.  I am really going to knuckle down and going to do what I mentioned above and not weigh in until day 50, half way through this challenge.  I don't want the stress of a number in my mind and I just want to focus on eating super clean and more and more toward the raw way of living.I also have another couple of ideas on the go as far as increasing my meditation, having a period of not watching TV and just aiming to up the positive vibration in my life, day by day.  This all starts with eating a super clean, energy providing, brain activity increasing, beautifully clean diet.I know it probably sounds lame to a lot of people but all I desire for is to eat a high carb, low fat, clean high vibration, wellness driven life.Although today 'happened', it is now behind me.  I am sorry for letting you all down, but I will do my best to make sure that today will be the last day I don't record my food/drink intake.  I want to increase the stakes in the game and get the foundation of my living (diet) more and more cleanly refined, moment by moment, day by day, week by week.Thank you all for your support...although I feel like I dropped the ball today, I am remaining positive, knowing this will be the last day this happens at least for the rest of the challenge and I will be feeling more and more amazing every day from here on in!  I love you all, hope you are being blessed and eating some beautiful, clean, plant strong foods yourself today!  Peace and love y'all.11/2 - Day 24Run - Easy 7k with the girls, recovery run.  42min 12sec.  Average - 6min p/kmHad a nice easy run out this morning with the girls and just took it nice and steady.  Work was really busy and went quickly which is always good.  We had a nice arvo relaxing and then I took Pria into dancing where she hurt her shoulder!  Hope it comes good quick.  She is pretty tough that one.  We then had a nice relaxing night and just took it easy.Today was great and felt awesome to be back on track with my eating.  Overall it went really good and I feel a million times better than yesterday already.  So so glad that day is behind me!  Loving so very much being on this lifestyle and can't wait to just keep improving and improving it every day!  Blessed.Food/drink journal - Smoothie (five bananas, two big mangos, coconut water and water, two madjool dates, iodine drops), latte, three roast sweet potatoes, cherry tomatoes, greens and lime juice, latte, nice cream (four bananas, soy mylk, four small dates, vanilla, carob powder), Autumn vege stew with brown rice, At One Food bar, hot carob.12/2 - Day 25Run - 25k Good old fashioned Hummock beat down!  10 hill repeats run and 10 hiked.  Got worked over.  2hr 29min 15sec.  Average - 5.58min p/km.Well, I was looking for a workout that would give me a going over and this mornings surly did that!  I got a smashing!  My legs have been pretty wrecked up all day! Love it.  Hopefully tomorrow mornings recovery run will help shake out the legs.We had a great morning dropping Tegan off, doing groceries and having coffee.  It was a nice morning out together.  We then had a nice lunch at home before heading to work.I had a really nice day today.  Everyone was happy (most of the time) and I just felt content today.  It was great!  My eating was great and life is good!Food/drink journal - Smoothie (10bananas, handful of grapes, hemp seeds, five small dates, carob powder, iodine drops, coconut/normal water), latte, home grown greens, three small sweet potatoes, cherry tomatoes, olives and lime juice, latte, nice cream (three bananas, two nectarines, two madjool dates, vanilla, water), mango, lemon, pea and roast capsicum risotto, tea, At One Food bar.13/2 - Day 26Run - 15k recovery run.  1hr 27min 43sec.  Average - 5.50min p/km.  Stepper - 19minWow!  My legs were stiff this morning!  That workout yesterday was really on the money!  Great to get one in that I KNOW made a difference.  Made sure that I took it super easy this morning and the legs started to free up a little about 10k into the run.  Got some long k's to do over the weekend so hope the stiffness is gone tomorrow!Had a really nice morning doing nothing too out of the ordinary...just taking it easy and enjoying time with Tegs and catching up with Willow for coffee.  I did some reading, relaxing and generally had a nice time!  I am pretty sure at this stage, from Monday I am going to do a period of no TV...where I only watch select movies with Tegan and just do a tonne of reading before uni starts, just to get myself in that mindset again.  Will be nice to get through some books that is for sure!Work this arvo/tonight was really busy at the start and then died right off.  I indulged on some raw deserts that I probably didn't need and had some cereal when I got home from work that I also probably didn't need but apart from that it was a stella day!  Work those extras off on my long run in the morning!Food/drink journal - Nice cream (seven bananas, grapes, coconut/normal water, seven small dates, carob powder, peppermint), latte, nice cream (eight bananas, apple, pear, cinnamon, water, two madjool dates), mango, vege curry with brown rice, full head of broccoli and peas, dirty chai, chai, raw (WFPB) treats at work, cereal with fruit/maple syrup.14/2 - Day 27Run - 35k in some serious wind!  3hr 20min 14sec.  Average - 5.43min p/km.This mornings run went not too bad but man it was SO windy!  Hectic!  At times, there were gusts so strong I thought I was going backward!  All that being said, I got the job done!  Good to have this one in the bank!The rest of the day was super relaxing, just lazing round at home, reading, having yummy pancakes for lunch for Valentines Day before heading to work.  I feel reasonably worked from this mornings run but not too shabby.  Looking forward to a easy long back up tomorrow and enjoying a drop back week next week to let the body and mind recover a little.Side note - I have had this random indigestion all day today from eating too much last night.  Even though it was still technically within the realms of my eating plan, I just had way too much food!  Good to be back on track today that is for sure!Food/drink journal - Electrolyte drink, four GU gels, smoothie (water/coconut water, seven bananas, grapes, carob powder, three madjool dates, hemp seeds), coffee, banana pancakes with mixed berries and maple syrup, two peaches, rice cakes with peanut butter, leftover vege stew pie, two health bars, dark chocolate, mocha, chai.15/2 - Day 28Run - 20k family fun.  1hr 57min 50sec.  Average - 5.51min p/km.Todays run went well.  Although my legs were a little tired I battled through and got it done.  Good outing at the end of a long week.From early this morning, for some reason my head just was not in the game mentally as far as food goes.  It sucked to feel like that.  From there, things just got worse.  I did not eat well today, ate too much and felt stink!  I think the combination of logging a decent week training (140k) and mental weakness at the end of the week, I just crumbled.This week has not been the best dietary wise compared to the first couple of weeks.  A fair amount of up and down and inconsistency.  I really want to focus this week on getting things really back on track, consistent, getting really simple and clean with my fuel intake, getting some extra mental strength and clarity, and enjoying a 'drop back' week (100k).  This week I am moving on from.  Whilst it has not been the best, it has been part of the journey and I just need to learn from it!  This week is going to be great.I again haven't included my food/drink journal and again I am so so sorry everyone!  This I promise will be the last day in this entire journey that I don't include it....good or bad!  You can all hold me to this!  Onward and upward!It sure has been a learning, growing and experience gaining week!  Heres to a week of super recovery and health!  Much love!This week - 140.1k.  13hr 41min.  26min stepper and bike commuting.